Hmz...

I don't know how I always forget I have these things. I guess forgetting isn't really what it is.. I've just mainly used blogs for venting and bitching but lately I've had nothing to complain about. Other than having no money.. but I guess that's everyone's issue these days.

I've never been so content with everything going on around me. Sometimes I look for things to worry or get mad about because it seems to good to be but maybe I'm just a really negative person? Or insecure? Or out of my mind? Whatever I think to much.

Not much has changed for me really.. going to Raleigh this weekend.. still working at the same place.. hopefully getting a 2nd job real soon to make ends meet.. currently looking for a house and breaking my lease early because that apartment sucks and I refuse to be there till August.. I miss Savannah so much but I'm going to Richmond in the next week or two to help her move into her new apartment.. CJ is everything I've ever wanted and nothing less. Our 5 month is real soon.. everyone says they knew we would end up together one day but no one thought it would last.. I love being right; I'm ALWAYS right. David passed away a few weeks ago, I get so frustrated every time I think about it because I never texted him back the last time he had text me... if only I knew it'd be the last time.........
'What if's' will be the death of me one of these days. I finally started working on my ganesh tattoo.. it's beautiful and huge. It goes from my hip all the way down the side of my thigh.. almost positive my dads gonna put a bullet in my head when he sees it. I don't know when I'm gonna have the money to finish it though. Bummer.

Robby and Dan are watching Stepbrothers and it keeps taking my attention away from this so until next time.....................

Tuesday and Wednesday were the worst two days of 09 for me yet. But everything is fixed now. It's hard dating someone who is just as stubborn and just as rude as you are, leads to some pretty intense fights; making up always rules though.

It is BEAUTIFUL outside and suppose to be even hotter tomorrow, I'm so excited about it. Too bad CJ didn't decide to go to bed till 9 this morning cause I'm ready to be outside not laying around till he decides to get up. Too much to get done today. I think I'm going to ride my bike for a while.

How's your News is my absolute new favorite show.

Other than being at work this is the first time I've been alone in soo long. Siege is out riding bikes with Josh Pitts and everyone else is at work or something. I need more alone time I think. My bike comes this week, now it just needs to get warm and stay warm.

Everything is good right now. Very good. Valentines was so fun. He bought me a huge bag of twilzers and a bear then wrote 25 reasons why he is in love with me and hid them around my room and I had to find them, it was cute. I changed my mind about getting my ribs tattooed.. he's doing my ganesh on my thigh next month, I'm excited. I always have a lot of things to write about but I take forever to update this thing I just forget it all.

I found out I still owe $400 towards the car I wrecked which blows.. I don't think Obama is as great as we thought he was going to be.

Werd.

Went to the family first tattoo anniversary on Sunday and won $100 towards a tattoo. Word up can finally start my ribzz.

Siege is back in New Bern till Thursday. Blows. I will be sleeping as much as possible the next two days.
Ready to move into a new house.
Ready to get my taxes back.
Ready to have money for myself again.
Ready for CJ to move to Wilmington.
Ready for Sav to come home.
Ready to go to Ohio.
Ready for Valentinez <3

Am I the only one that had no idea snow was coming? I suppose it's a nice surprise to wake up too. I've been up since like 8 this morning, I guess I'm incapable of sleeping alone cause I never get a full night of sleep anymore when it's by myself... anyways I was up for like an hour and a half before I realized it was even snowing.. leave it up to myspace bulletins to be the one that informed me of it's presence.

Madd, Maggie and I are going to look at a new house today. I'm so excited, this apartment is gross I hate living here. I want my own yard and driveway and room to actually walk around in.. not just a tiny living room with even tinier rooms attached. We pay 819 to live here and we would pay 900 to live there... completely worth it.

I stayed up and read all of my old livejournal posts last night.. and since I mostly used that thing for venting it just brought back a lot of bad memories and fights from the past couple of years.. I don't know what went so wrong and how it got so bad... ugh.

Going to wake up Robby, I'm tired of hanging out by myself.

i miss you so fucking much.

WEEDS.

Hands down, best show I've ever seen. Currently watching season 3. Someone should get me season 4. Really.

Robby stripped last night for some extra cash, too bad they didn't tell him it was a gay bar until he got there to preform. Lawlz. Most awkward/gross night of 09 yet.

CJ is leaving today after being here for the past two weeks.
God damn. That. Sucks.